I'm appalled at the competitiveness of women. What is it about ALL TOO MANY women that make a big show of themselves trying to take away the attention of men that their girlfriends likes? Is it satiating to their egos to get attention of unavailable men? Is it their victory over other women that feeds their sadistic appetite? Can I not find one good hearted woman behind the guise of a decent and nice person on the outside? It's like when I do shower obvious attention and affection on my boyfriend, IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS, this girl Rachel (who previously did not show that kind of attention towards my boyfriend, AND who's supposedly a nice and caring person who's suppose to be considerate of other people) all of a sudden took a too-intense interest in my boyfriend in ways that would obviously make any girlfriend uncomfortable. WHAT the HELL. SHE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE MY FRIEND. I feel bitterly betrayed, and I don't personally understand all that insecurity behind the competitive edge between women, the need for validation of their attractiveness for men through stealing attention from their girlfriend's boyfriend. I personally never did it OR EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT IT to any women, let along a girlfriend. I don't feel threatened by Rachel at all. But I can't help but feel betrayed by women and by my own innocence. Things like this has happened to me ever since high school, there're far too many (not exaggerating) women who has to pick me as their competitor than I care to bother.

Thus, that's how it all started my feeling of defensiveness when women measure me with their eyes in this unpleasant, displeased manner when I walk by. As if they hated women like me and wished women like me didn't exist. Of course, it's not my problems. Sometimes I can't help but let it bother me a little. Just the feel of hostility - any kind of hostility - makes me extremely uncomfortable.

I wish people would just be nice and get along.

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